MuSiC oF mY LiFe

~~Thursday, February 03, 2005~~

hey there...finally u all can see e words...haiz...u jus need a pure genius to get it done without the help of a comp pro wahaha...but too bad...sotong cant access..and the funny tink is, we cant view my blog now from IE explorer..duno wad's the prob..maybe change it sometime later or so baz...i wanna stick to it for now..haha.

2day was another wasted day la...i always find e last paper zui nan ao...haha..cos its lyk freedom's so near yet so far...din study much thru' out these days at hm cos no sense of urgency..haha..only tis morn read thru' once..den maybe later jus flip thru notes den go zzz le...jer-monkey came over AGAIN..my god...sianz...why cant some OTHER pple come over instead of him..gettin sick...oppz...jus joking la....tiff la...go buy wad Hp...pui...hekhek..

feeling quite pissed now...yesterday i was jus mentioning abt pple repeating mistakes or faults...den today it happened to someone i noe again...i m lyk thoroughly disappointed in her again la. Tml we r suppose to meet KT mah..so long nv c le...if not must wait till her next hol back to Sg le..den me n a few of my pals r suppose to go..n she's supposed to come too..den she was e one who kept pestering me these few days abt where to meet, wad to do, where to eat etc. Den KT almost cldn't meet us cos her mum din wan her to leave M'sia since causeway might jam due to NY crowd n stuff..so we were lyk tinking if can den we will meet her n stuff la. Den KT called jus now n said she can make it so we agreed to meet la. Den my tis fren was lyk so enthu n stuff abt it, den she jus called n say she might not come cos she got sth on (which i assume is not v impt)...i mean...u r e 1 that was so enthu to meetin her la..den now u jus push it off to me sia..i mean tis is a small matter la...but it reflects alot on ur personality lor...after numerous times la...

Doin my part as wad a fren...i accepted ya thru' out these yrs..same as the rest...treated u as part of us..den ur attitude still sux...everyone has flaws...but we shld change for the better wad...most imptly for ourself..if U were lyk gone n lost in ur own world for a long time ah...i wldn't hav bothered...cos u r always not wif us..even when u say u r...we noe u aren't..but we tried believing u somehow. But i REALLY DUN UNDERSTAND...why EVERYTIME when things seem to return to normal n well...u start ur nonsense again. We build trust wif each n every move we make..every single detail counts...some frenz said me n my pal shld jus let u go..treat u as a normal fren..forget abt our ke ku ming xin de you yi...some say if we r ur true frenz we shld not even huai yi ni...i duno..Y isit always abt U...why the rest of our pals dun seem to haf such a prob? Esp. me n xxx(dun wanna mention) dun haf a prob..no matter how far we r or how long we nv MEET...e strong bond is still there....I once gave up a fren whom i was getting on well to remain as a loyal fren to u...cos i tot our frenship was more precious...xxx almost did tt too...i m not proving how magnanimous i m..but jus stating an eg. of how much we r willing to giv up, tis is jus 1 eg, u noe nothing...even when i m so so disappointed in u once again..i nv doubt my choice to choose u as my pal...i jus wanna u to regain my trust once n forever...

in my life...i can say friends family n loved ones r the ones tt keep me goin on wif my life....even my goals n aim...i lay it out for dem...of cos pple say ultimately its we (who lay goals n achieve it) who gain it...but without anyone or anytink to pull me/others thru...how strenuous it could b can ya imagine...i can say i m charmed wif a few good pals...a few is enuff...that's not all...i hav a great bunch of classmates n frenz too..so why shld i bother rite wif U rite? haiz..maybe its becos i cherish U lyk M too....cant u be more sensitive to us? Having said tt, haiz, i dun feel any better, jus wanna let it all out n clear my mind so i hav da mood to read up my notes later...sorri guys for writing too much jus abt 1 matter...

Anyway tml meeting KT, tink its gonna b fun cos its been quite sometime since we've meet up yeah? haha..kt arh dun qn me abt who THAT person above is...i m sure u'd haf guessed it le..but nv expect tinks are lyk tt rite...haha nvm...dun need to probe..its nothin..jus ANOTHER passing phrase..dun worry abt it yeah? =)

Ok la...shan't blog anymore le...gonna go bathe le...so byez....

Main moltivation to get thru tml: Finish CT, Meet KT n pal, Meet doi doi online! haha...Ohhh...n mahjong the next day!hahaha....=)

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